今日ふっとドリー（前の討論部のパートナー）のことが頭に浮かんだ。

それと共にキャンディーズの歌が浮かんできた（古！）。

　　真っ赤な林檎を頬ばる　←やった
　　ネイビーブルーのTシャツ　←着てた
　　あいつはあいつは可愛い年下の男の子　←確かに年下

　　淋しがり屋で生意気で　←確かにそうだ
　　憎らしいけど好きなの　←確かに憎らしい（つーか言うこと聞かない）￥
　　L・O・V・E　投げキッス
　　私のこと好きかしら
　　はっきり聞かせて

　　ボタンの取れてるポケット　←取れていた
　　汚れて丸めたハンカチ　←ハンカチを持っていない
　　あいつはあいつは可愛い年下の男の子

　　デートの時間に遅れる　←確かにいつも遅れる
　　いつでもけんかをしかける　←喧嘩をしかけるのが楽しいのかと思うほど
　　あいつはあいつは可愛い年下の男の子

　　忘れん坊でわがままで　←すぐ忘れるしマイペース
　　意地悪だけど好きなの　←死ぬほど意地が悪い
　　L・O・V・E　投げキッス
　　私のこと好きかしら
　　はっきり聞かせて

　　片方なくした手袋　←手袋ではなく靴下
　　ほどけたまんまの靴ヒモ　←結ばれていたためしがない
　　あいつはあいつは可愛い年下の男の子

　　淋しがり屋で生意気で
　　憎らしいけど好きなの
　　L・O・V・E　投げキッス
　　私のこと好きかしら
　　はっきり聞かせて

　　ボタンの取れてるポケット
　　汚れて丸めたハンカチ
　　あいつはあいつは可愛い年下の男の子
　　あいつはあいつは可愛い年下の男の子
　　あいつはあいつは可愛い年下の男の子

やれやれ。

あいつのなんだったんだ、あたしゃ（笑

What do you do when you find yourself in a limbo, unable to identify where you are in another's regard?

What do you do when you realize that you were about 4 years too late?

What do you do when there's an ocean standing in the way?

What do you do?

For some reason I don't think this'll solve like an algebra problem.

Or that's what they seem to think.

Now that this glorious sleepy summer is hitting autumn, I decided to disclose myriad of lewd comments I received from my male acquaintances this summer. Some of them are... well, wow, others are funny. And all of them contain more than enough implicit sexuality.

Be warned.

Oh, and I also found it amusing that they were all said by Europeans. Apparently Americans are prudes :P

Jeremy: Your waist size is 24?
Me: Yup.
Jeremy: Perfect.
Me: For what...?
Jeremy: For me to wrap my arms. Without me going SQUISH.
Me: ?!?!?

Me: Why is it that guys stare at me? Is there something on my face?
Jack: There's lipstick on your mouth.
Me: That's not what I meant!
Jack: I think you're the one who's responsible. The way you dress doesn't leave much to imagination...
Jeremy: Or leave too much.

Jeremy: I hope she's coming home with me tonight~~
Me: She's not.
Jeremy: ... You did.

Jack: You're coming onto me.
Me: Nope.
Jack: What's that hand?
Me: It's on the table.
Jack: Yeah, you're coming onto me. Wanna take it further?
Me: ... no.

Jeremy: For God's sake, can you please stop swooning over 2D characters and swoon over a real guy for once!?
Me: Like who...
Jeremy: I'm a real guy...
Me: Uh huh. I love you too.

Jack: The guys were looking at you.
Me: Okay. As usual.
Jack: It amuses me that I'm the only one who can talk to you.
Me: And what do you feel about that?
Jack: I'm happy about that, thanks very much.

Jeremy: If you had to pick someone to sleep with, who would you pick?
Me: I have no clue.
Jack: We can do three to a bed.
Jeremy: Nope. We'll do it, you can watch.
Me: Wait, wait a moment! Don't I get a say?!
Jack and Jeremy: (stares) ... No.

4:30PM. It's nice weather. I'm wearing regular clothes, and I go out to get something from a store nearby. I walk there. The heels clatter against the sidewalk. In the due process of getting there, which took, oh, let's say, about 10 minutes, I got hooted twice by a guy I didn't know, got honked at (no, I was not crossing the street), got stared at, and was beaten by a branch.

WILL YOU LEAVE ME ALONE?

Oh, and by the way, please stop staring at me. It's RUDE.

Jebus.

My results came in (well, not really). I passed, and as all med students know, it's pass baby, it's all about the pass. Hence I was able to sleep, and I slept for about 15 hours (is that possible? Trust me, it is). Anyway, I'd like to shout...

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE SAYING THAT YOU DON'T NEED SEX BECAUSE YOUR MAJOR FUCKS YOU EVERYDAY...

well...

SHUT THE FUCK UP.

I'm not being elitist. Really, I'm not. But I nearly died last year, and the hardest year has yet to come. I think the worst was when I pulled 3 all-nighters consecutively, not because I had any deadlines coming up but because I was so behind in compiling notes. Med school sucks, and probably law school too, so just shut up and go back to solving Calculus.

And for those of you who are aspiring to go to med school and think House is close to reality, think again. It's not. It's one of those professions where your fingers have the honour and privilege to travel to the grossest places ever devised by God, and those include sick vaginal orifices and men's rectums. So unless you have a fetish of sticking your fingers up there (and in which case please desist from coming back here again), try a cleaner profession.

Seriously.

Here's the stuff I need to learn next year...

Pathology
Microbiology
Medical Ethics (WHAT?!)
Biostats
Physio and Anatomy
Pharmacology
Psychology (again, WHAT?)
Immunology
Histology

so if you don't hear from me again, that means I died.

Ciao.

And the remainder of the lyrics shall not be disclosed because I have to keep this blog rating PG13 (haha)


Anyway, the lyrics is from 'I touch Myself' by The Genitorturers. Go look it up yourself if you want to know it that bad.

And here I am, sort of dreading July because that's when I get my exam results... and get to know if I can continue university next year o-O oh crap.

Now, excuse me while I go enjoy the art of a bronzer.

Dear Dolce and Gabbana,

In case you haven't noticed, you and your kind of sexual orientation are the only ones who actually find naked males in nothing but underoos hot and arousing.

Thank you, the management.

But SERIOUSLY. It's gross. Those steroid-induced genetic freaks that flaunt their abs (and more) in nought but briefs should be arrested. I don't CARE if they're hot, they're sexy, they're good-looking, whatever.

Fact of the day: THEY LOOK GROSS.

I don't want to see it! I just don't. Thank you, I was enjoying the nice scenery outside and then all of a sudden I see the stupid D&G ad where there's a guy with nothing but white briefs trying to look cool. Not only did that attempt fail horribly, but it also made my stomach churn.

It doesn't help that their muscles are bulging, inducing yucky images of the gym, sweat, and well... steroids.

Ew.

So, when you get this memo, D&G, please stop using muscly bundles of fiber. I DON'T WANT TO SEE IT.

...

So I was looking at Ticketmaster when I saw...

LED ZEPPELIN COMES TO KINGS COLLEGE!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!

Yeah, that's what I thought. Duh.

And since I thought Robert Plant was one of the sexiest vocalists ever, I looked at the photos when I saw...

Ew.

Old.

REALLY old.

No matter what I look at, THEY'RE OLD.

I HATE OLD GUYS!

Therefore, I'm not going. Apparently the ticket costs 11.50 pounds, but it's still expensive even if the ticket was 20p!

I'll go if they become young again <-arrogance rampant

Go away, old man.

Actually, how about going into a coffin instead? I think it's about time to go to the next world. You've finished your job here. I don't think there's anything to regret about this world either. Therefore, just go without a fuss.

Well... Not just Led Zep, but Queen and all those people too. You guys were popular half because of you guys' looks! You guys are utterly useless when you guys get old! Your places aren't even in this world, let alone a stage.

By the way, Linkin Park cost 60 pounds but I still went anyway.

Yeah, these days Linkin Park costs more than Zep. Time changes, ha.

Youth is the best。Therefore, the CD Led Zep is quite enough, thank you. Even if they offered me a 100 quid to go, I still don't want to. They'll hurt my eyes ><

Oh, they'll probably hurt my ears too.

Oh wait, never mind, Jimmy's guitar was sometimes painful to my ears to begin with. Oh well.

But I gotta say this...

KCL, get a sense in your head, for god's sake.

．．．

いやー、チケットマスター見てたら．．．


うおおおおおおおおおおおおお！

と思ったんですね。当たり前だわな。

で、「今のツェッペリンどうなってんのかいな」と思って写真見たら．．．

げ。

爺．．．

つーか爺。

どうみても爺。

爺は嫌いだ。

というわけで行きません。１１．５０ポンドらしいが２０Pでも高いわ！

若返ったら行ってやろう。←何えばってんだよ

爺は向こうへ行け。

つーか棺おけに入ってください。もういい加減あの世に行ったらいかがでしょう？役目も終わったんだし～。人生悔いることもねーでしょ。だからあっさりぽっくりと。

もうクイーンとかツェッペリンとか全員ぽっくり行けよ、お前ら顔で半分持ってたんだろ！爺になったら役立たずなんだよ！お前らの場所は舞台どころかこの世にはもはやない。

ちなみにリンキン・パークは60ポンドですが行きました。

今はツェッペリンよりもリンキンの方が高いのさ、時代は変わるぜ（ふっ

若さが一番。という訳でツェッペリンはCDだけで充分でございます。100ポンドもらっても行きたくありません。目の保養どころか目の害に．．．

耳の害にもなったりして．．．（あ、ジミーのギターはもう耳の害か、そこは変わってません）。

うちの大学もセンス悪！

First of all, I'd like to say...

WHY THE HELL DIDN'T ENGLAND GET THROUGH?!

HUH!? HUH!!!???

I demand an explanation.

Other than that, it looks like it's going to be the regular cup fight between Netherlands, Italy, Germany, France, Spain and Portugal. Given that Portugal plays dirty, they're probably out... but France, Italy, Spain and Germany are probably going to put up a good fight.

Who am I rooting for? I don't know yet :P

So my first year in med school is finally over, and now all I've left to do is pack my stuff and go home. As much as that sounds fun, it's not, because...

A. Most of my US friends were done in MAY, and have been lounging around for a while.
B. Oh wait, I have a grand total of about 3 friends. Never mind.
C. Dragging microbiology, biochem and other textbooks across the ocean is NOT my idea of FUN!

Anyway, enough with ranting.

Tata.

実写だったら神田はこの時のガクトさんで（笑

今のガクトは却下。

Conclusion: My debate partner is a little retarded sometimes.

Conclusion: I am not an ordinary female.

Conclusion: Ehh, what?

I finally got a response from my ex-debate partner after a hiatus of... what? 5 months? He just disappeared (not literally, I mean, but he wasn't responding to me) then suddenly decided to make a comeback. And I'd like to hollar:

WTF ARE YOU DOING?! DID YOU THINK I'D BE THERE FOR YOU? (well, I was, but...) TREAT ME A LITTLE NICER DAMN IT, I AM NOT YOUR GIRLFRIEND OR YOU MUM!

Ahh, that felt good.

But if he wanted a little space, then why the hell didn't he say so? He could have, right? But oh no. He just stopped responding, leaving many clueless people in what? Fear (or maybe that was the select few), desolation (now I'm being overdramatic), e.t.c. Not cool, Ian. Not cool.

But he did make a move. Now it's my turn.

Checkmate.

Well, I found it.

I found the song.

And I'm about to die of joy... well, not really.

Let me explain.

A few weeks ago, I randomly wandered into a weird CD shop in Richmond and heard this song that was just grabbed my heart. After I went home, I craved it. I wanted it. I was dying for it.

The problem was, I didn't know the song title... or the artist name. So basically, I was screwed. I mourned for such a song. It's rare for me to instantaneously love a song - usually it takes about 30 listens. But this one was... different. It caught me.

And just this morning, I stumbled upon the song on YOUTUBE. I nearly cried when I heard the song.

What's the song? Well, you're probably listening to it right now. It's by Kirito, and it's called Poison.

Lyrics:
I watch you as you sleep beyond the deep fog
Just like sweet poison I embrace and dig my nails

The pose with tears is beautiful
Like swallowing light darkness is made

The night your eyes were wet with tears and mourned, the door opened
The memory that interrupted the two shattered into pieces

The night when body trembled and shattered, the door opened
The silence that interrupts the two has already disappeared

I'll pour it into the wanting lips
If you want to fall endlessly
I'll give it to the upraised palm
The despair that makes you even love regret

I did think of something though... the guy who can say this to me is either A: VERY confident, B: very sadistic, or C: Both. Normal guys will probably get scared of getting this response:

"HUH?! You want to make me drink poison? How about I make you drink it instead?"

So... the guy's sure that I'll drink it, or he's sadistic enough to make me drink it.

And while that's dangerously romantic, I might say no to that offer...

うおおおおおおおおおおおおおおお！！！！！

とうとう見つけた...あの運命の曲...（運命じゃないって）

いやー、何かって言うとですね、たまたまなんかでかかってたんですよ、なんかオタッキー系のCDショップだったと思うんだけど。リッチモンドだったと思うけど。もうすごい気に入っちゃったんだけどどうしても曲名もアーティスト名も不明。そんなわけで２週間ぐらいイライライラ...

タイトルは毒薬。キリトさんの曲だそうです。

歌詞はどうやら男が女に毒を飲ませる...ことらしい。ううー、なんちゅうS。

でもこれ私に言える人ってそうそういないんじゃ？大体普通の奴が私に言ったら「逆に私が飲ましてやろうか...」って黒い笑みを浮かべながら言いかねない。そしたら普通怖いでしょ。

だから言える人→相当の自信家、相当のサド、傲慢。

なんか言われたいような言われたくないような...複雑な心境です。

でも唇に毒ってよく使われてるな。思わず三島由紀夫を思い出させるフレーズ。

I got this passed around from somebody... and since I did Reno in the Japanese blog, I'll do Tyki in this one.

I Love You Baton■

1.Without hiding anything, tell all the truth
2.Do not run ahead of yourself
3.You must specify a male
4.No matter how many times this is passed on to you, you must complete it


【Specify】Er, Tyki Mikk


■The place where you met 【Tyki】?

Probably when I was browsing through Crunchyroll and stumbled upon him in nought but underwear.

■What about【Tyki】makes you a fangirl?

I'm not a fangirl (I think) so I really can't say.

■Is 【Tyki】S or M? Which would you prefer?

As much as I love bullying people, I have a good feeling that I'd be bullied... so S.

■What kind of 【Tyki】's behavior makes you love him?

Errr.... I have no clue.

■What makes you like 【Tyki】?

Probably the devil-may-care attitude.

■What don't you like about【Tyki】?

He's probably smoking pot, not cigarettes?

■What do you want from 【Tyki】?

Erm, please die very soon in the back alley of South London so I can stop reading that thing... it's getting long and tedious.

■Anyone who should become closer to 【Tyki】?

I want to see Sherrill/Tyki interaction, actually. That sounds amusing.

■Anything you focus on when writing/drawing 【Tyki】?

I do neither, so none?

■Do you want him as a family?

No thank you. He'd drive me nuts.

■School uniform or blazer?

Blazer!

■Jersey or Jeans?

Jeans!

■Would you like to marry him?
No thank you. Again, he'd drive me up the wall.

■Any last words of love?

... please die very soon. I don't like your recent transformation...

バトンが回ってきたので（つーか回すな！）一応義務感も在り…（ないって）

愛してるんだけどバトン■

1.包み隠さず全て語ること
2.突っ走るのは禁止
3.指定するのは男の子であること
4.また回されても何回もやること


【指定】 困った…えーと、えとえと、レノ


■【レノ】と初めて出会った場所は？

ＦＦＶＩＩの最初ボス。あのゆらゆら揺れる立ち方が印象深かった。

■【レノ】の何処に萌える？

萌えないのでなんとも言えません。

■【レノ】はS？M？どっちでいて欲しい？

うーん、本人Ｍは嫌なんじゃないでしょうか。武器見てても接近戦用だし…

■【レノ】のどんな仕種が萌える？

あの三つ子を吹っ飛ばす時の笑み。あんた、自分も爆発エリアにいたら死ぬってわかってますかー？

■【レノ】の好きなところは？

飄々としている性格。どうなっても笑っている所。

■【レノ】の嫌いなところは？

なんかこう決まらない所。一応二枚目なんだろ！飲んだくれてないでちったあ格好いいとこ見せてちょ。

■【レノ】に望んでることは？

とりあえず死なないで。後は望みません。格好よくなるのは無理だって知ってます。

■もっと【レノ】と絡んで欲しい人は？

絡むってねぇ…見るなら社内風景（特にイリーナにくどくど言われているところ）が見たいです。

■【レノ】を描（書）くときに特に主張しているところは？

あのヘラヘラ気味でしょうか。学ナシ、変態（多分）、ヘタレの三冠王。

■家族にするなら？

ご遠慮します。あんな奴が家族だったらこっちが気が狂って死ぬわい。

■学ランとブレザー、どっちを着てほしい？

つーか常にブレザーなのでもっぱらブレザーです。

■私服ではジャージ、ジーパンどちらでいて欲しい？

ジーンズ。

■結婚したい？
絶対に嫌です。見てるのは好きだけど。

■最後に愛をどうぞ。

コミックなところがありながらも決める所は決めるエース。

これからも沢山人の邪魔をしてください。

あんたはそのために生まれてきたんだから。

So, my first year at a university is ending rapidly (ONE MORE EXAM TO GO... not to mention that this might be my last year if I fail my exams... oh crap), and I thought about reviewing this year, sum it up, and kinda lock it away in my memory and throw away the key (just kidding). Lots of stuff... didn't happen, actually, my life didn't have all the high school drama shit for once.

Well, what I learned is that... people still hate me in the States. And to be honest... I've ceased to care. Provided that I don't fail my exams (of which fate, I don't know), I've long left all the high school/undergrad drama and if I just keep passing my exams I'm set for life, right? (NOT). Most of them I'll never see again, so help me God. And for those of you who think that you're actually happy getting illegally drunk every night, well, good for you. I won't mention just how many dendrites you're damaging, because surprise surprise, it's recoverable... mostly. But many of the dendrites never rejoin, and hence bye bye synapse; but that's your choice.

Two, med school sucks. Yes it does. It sucks like no tomorrow and most of the time I was so sleep-deprived and so... health-deprived and so caffeine-overloaded that I might as well as have been guzzling amphetamines instead of 600mg caffeine (which is very close to lethal dose, I learned later). But you know what? If I can, I'd like to remain in this world, not because of the power trip (although I won't deny it), or the drama (of which I've witnessed many but never partook), but because... I like medicine, I guess. I've worked so hard to grab at it... I've sacrificed a lot of things for it, and getting rejected is one thing, but letting it go is quite another. So for those of you who keep asking me "why won't you enjoy your undergrad years?", excuse my Anglosaxon expletive but please, sod off (wait, that's not an expletive).

Three, I'd like to thank my next door neighbour to the left... you've shown me a lot of things that no one else could before. Although I still question your work ethics and your random habits of knocking on my door at bizarre hours and/or asking me to do bizarre things (and no, I am not letting you give me a Physical, no is a no), each of your observations warranted and merited a close analysis later on. And I did appreciate the ice cream.

Hopefully (although I can hear my best friend in university, Jennifer, screaming "JUST SHUT UP"), I can come back to this school next year.

And hopefully Stolkie retires or croaks it this year; I refuse to have him as my neuroanatomy lecturer. Either create a constructive and informative slide for the notes or stop reading off it. Your existence in the classroom merited zero benefit this year.

And stop making me feel like an idiot. I know I'm an idiot, that's why I'm here. I don't need a constant reminder...

タイトルは特に意味はありません。ただめちゃくちゃむしゃくしゃしてるからそういうタイトルにしただけです。でもなんかピストルかなんかばんばん撃てたらすっきりすんだべな。もっとも私はやりません、たぶん人を撃つだろうから。

まず停電が起きた。朝の九時頃。必要なPDFをダウンロードしてたらいきなり回線が切れたので「あれ？あれ？」と思ってたらいきなり動かなくなった。そしてあっという間にあたりは薄暗い闇に包まれ…って言うと小説調だけど実は電気が消えただけ。驚いて外に出てみると廊下は暗し。おかしいなと思ってロビーに出るとエレベーター動かず。

この時点で「あ、停電だ」と気がついた。ま、普通の停電は３０分ほどで復旧するので待っていたが待てど暮らせど電気はつかない。腹が立ったのでパソコンとバインダー引っつかんでガイズの図書館行こうと思ったら閉まっている。仕方がないのでウォータールーに行った。あそこの図書館にいると頭が痛くなるのであまり行かないようにしているんだが背に腹は変えられないということでいたしかない。

帰ってきたのは７時頃。私は雨女に変身したらしくこの頃外に出ると必ず雨に降られる。中に入るとぱったり止み、外に出るとまたじゃんじゃか降ってくる。傘を持っているとどういうわけか降らない。キーっと叫びたかったがそういうわけにもいかないのでとりあえず雨の中を帰った。

よくよく調べてみるとこれは停電って言っても大規模らしい。ロンドンブリッジの駅で洪水があり、その下に電気配線があったんだそうな。それがやられてあたり全滅。寮は「朝の八時から夜の六時までいてはいけません」と言う命令を出した。なんででしょーねー。よっぽど文句を言われるのがいやなんだろうか。それぐらいしか思いつかない。

ところで試験勉強で全然漫画は見ていませんが（当たり前か）どうやら私が好きなキャラは正気を失ってあれだけの激戦をやった後にピンピンして戻ってきたようです。なんか拍子抜け。おまけに太った。イケメン悪役が太ってどーすんだ。やっぱしヨーロッパ男は２５歳が限界でしょうか。（ちなみにこいつは２６歳）。　が　 になったんだよね、これまたどーして？

あのー、びんぼーにひたすら耐えていた爽やか悪役ティキぽんはどこへ行ったんでしょう？

あの下層階級ヨーロッパ人特有の「いい服着てるから俺は偉いんだぜエッヘン」的な雰囲気をかもし出していますが。

つーかおらの夢を壊さんでくれー、それでなくてもうちの学部は美形がすくないんだよォ。（訂正：皆無です）

おまけになんかじじむっさくなってるし。

それに燕尾服にロン毛はあんまし似合いません。つーかはっきりいいましょう、ロン毛で燕尾服が似合うのは世界でただ一人！少佐だけです。（あ、伯爵もいたか、一応）。後はやめてください。燕尾服への冒涜です。おまけに腕が太すぎ。すこしダイエットしろよ。肉体労働してた時はやせてたけどピートン伯爵のところにいて太ったんかい。ポケットチーフもないし花はどうした、花は！ボタンホールないのか。

やっぱし昔のティキの方がよかった！着こなしもよかった！あのティキ返せ、アレン！お前はどうなってもいいんだ！

つーかなんで悪役の方が好きなんだろ…性格ねじくれ曲がってるのかも…

Okay, I know, the Chinese were always causing problems, but I didn't think they'd be THAT insensitive.

What did they do?

Here.


Do they want to have a war with the world's weapon merchant or something?!

As anyone who knows a little history knows, France and Nazi are a no-no combo. That's like saying about atomic bomb to the Japanese, Manchruian Massacre to the Manchurians, Apartheid to the South Africans or the London Bombing to the British. YOU JUST DON'T DO IT. On personal terms, be prepared to get punched.

On that level?!

Be prepared for war.

I was under the impression that the Chinese wanted to make Beijing Olympics into a success. I guess not...?